Best Kept Secret

My life these last few months have been hard. I don't know exactly when or how, but I picked up my old patch. Day after day I get annoyed as I get on the scale at note that I have gained another pound. I rack my brain trying to figure out how could it be. Then suddenly it hit as I saw in my mind everything that I had been consuming. I felt it scream at me. "HELLO THERE OLD FRIEND. DO YOU REMEMBER ME? YES IT IS YOUR EATING DISORDER. WHAT CAN I FAKE PATCH FOR YOU TODAY?" Tears swelled in my eyes and I couldn't believe that I relapsed without being consciously aware of it. My flaw, my weakness, my black spot that I hid and thought I had overcome is back. This time though will be different. I will not hide the fact that it is part of my life. I will see it and meet it head on along with all the other little trials I have to face. I am letting it all out. That is why this blog came to be. For so long people in my life have seen me as strong, unbreakable, faithful, and determined, but by trying to live up to this I have relapsed. This time I will talk everything out. No one knows who I am so I still have a little sceret, but other then that I am nothing but real.